I have decided to diet. Now, I am not morbidly obese but, I could stand to lose a few pounds. See, I don't want to be a fat dad with fat kids. I want to be able to play with you when you want to run around. I want to be able to keep up with you. I don't want you to be fat. It's unfair that the world you live in is going to try and define what your body type should be. And it is doubly unfair that the body type most often presented is pretty much unreachable without a lot of money and self loathing. I want to be healthier for you and I want you to be healthy.
It makes me so fucking mad to see fat kids stuffing their faces full of shitty food. I am an adult who buys my own food. I know that I should have a salad over a burger. However, kids don't know any better. I saw a kid tonight at a pizza joint who was huge. The kid could not have been more than 7. He must have weighed close to 150 lbs! No lie. And he was short. This kid looked like he was about to have a heart attack right there. And he was stuffing his face full of ziti covered in cheese and sauce. And I literally mean stuffing. I saw this kid put a giant forkful in his mouth, chew four or five times, and then mash more food in. To the point where he could not close his mouth all the way and still breathe. I wanted to find this kids parents and smash them. This kid eats this way because he is allowed to. I eat like shit because I am allowed to as well. The difference is that I am 28. And I know better. This kid really bothered me and has set me on a course of action. I want to lose weight so that I can be a part of your lives. Not just when you are babies but when you are older as well. Our family is pretty big and I apologize for that. Your genes are working against you. But, it is my duty to teach you better. And in order to do that I need to figure it out for myself. Here's hoping I do soon because I will not let you girls get big. Your lives will be tough enough without having that pressure as well.
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