FMK - Going to the doctor

All at once, going to the doctor is both fantastic and terrifying at the same time. On the one hand, I get to see pictures of you as you grow and develop. On the other, the doctor may get to say something is wrong. Now, there is one thing you need to understand about your dad. I am an optimist. I believe that every day is a good day. Some are better than others but I can honestly say that even with everything that has happened in our family, I have never had a bad day. I hope that I never will. So every time that I go to the doctors I think nothing but good things. I cannot wait to go and hear your heartbeats. I have not had the opportunity to do that yet and I cannot wait. For some reason, that will make everything more real. I mean, your mother is showing. I know that you are in there. But, I have not been able to feel you move yet and that sucks. I want to know that you are awake and moving. Hearing your heartbeats is concrete, it means I really am a dad. And that is awesome! I know there are a ton of things that can go wrong. Shit I haven't even heard of. But, I know that everything will be perfectly fine. I know that each of you will be healthy and happy. I feel it.
Unfortunately, I have not been able to make every doctors appointment that your mom has gone to. That upsets me. I want to be there for you. But, sometimes it cannot happen. Sometimes, life gets in the way. Work or some other responsibility pulls me away. I want you to know however that you are my main concern. If I have to miss an appointment it is for a damn good reason. I cannot promise that I will be at every visit. That is not something I can control. But I will be at every one I possibly can. And I will hear good news at each one.