FMK - Jealousy

So as of right now your mom can feel you move and kick. She said it's like a rumbling in her belly. Kind of like when you get nervous and your stomach goes all fluttery. I on the other hand, cannot fell you move or kick. And I think that's bullshit. I really want to. I try to get a fell and I can't. Your mom really wants me to fell you moving as well. She is very upset when I have my hand on her belly and you move and I give no reaction. Hopefully soon. I don't know what feeling you move will change, if anything. Maybe it will make your impending birth more tangible. Right now, even though I know you are in there, it is totally a you and your mom situation. I am like an innocent bystander. And that sounds very sad, and it sort of is. Not emo sad, but sad. I want to be part of your lives now. Unlike some men, I have no desire to pregnant. I will never understand the desire some men have to feel the physical part of pregnancy. That is wholly weird to me. More people need to be comfortable with who they are and what they can experience. But anyway, I want to be involved, not pregnant. Maybe felling you move will make me a little closer to you. I already talk to you when your mom is asleep. Not that I feel weird talking to you in front of her, I don't. Well, not really. But when she is asleep, it's jsut us, me and my kids. I don't say a lot, just shit like "hi". I tell you that I can't wait to meet you and that I hope I'm a good dad and whatnot. And I know you can't respond verbally. That's why I want to feel a kick or someething. To let me know that you know I'm there. It should happen soon. I'm not good at the whole patience thing though. So hurry up or hit harder or something ;)